college has started. its been two weeks already.
my relationship is going well. i love him. i really do. i hope everything works out well between us because im so scared all this happiness wont last long.
our first challenge of the relationship happened last week.
i went to an audition for a play called "anna in the tropics" just for the sake of it. i never thought id get casted but i did. and for one of the most important characters: conchita. Conchita is Anna, a very troubled person who is unhappily married to a man who doesnt love her and cheats on her. This is the fear of every woman, or at least me, to married someone for love and to find out it wasnt mutual. it seems to be a very tough character because now im gonna have to project my fears into reality with this character. she takes on a lover, whos attractive by the way, and they have to kiss and make love in the play, which means i have to do the same thing. this is why i called it the first challenge of love between me and my boyfriend lol. when i chose acting i did because i wanted to get over that fear of public speaking but i think ive gone too far. maybe this was meant to happen..i dont have the asnwer for that but now im nervous, confused, puzzled and very expectant because i have to fulfill this character and i feel so much pressured. its the first time i do this unlike the other actors. i know i shouldnt compared myself but im gonna try my best, and that includes memorizing those lines, which i suck at it. lol we'll see what happens in the following weeks :s
